三十二度七 电影通缉令 2017-05-19

估计在夜晚未入眠之前的脑内小剧场中，谁都设想过自己将有朝一日偶遇中学时代的旧情人的场景，或者是在同学聚会上相逢一笑泪光闪闪然后在乌七八黑的KTV里把小手儿一握，或者是在谈判桌上狭路相逢唇枪舌剑，然后在对方一句“少喝点咖啡，对身体不好”中发现，原来这么多年过去对方心中还是在乎自己。可是，给对方办离婚手续？喂，导演，剧本可没有这么写的。

电影《小情书》偏偏就这样写了。

当然，既然男主和女主身在一个城市，男主作为一名光荣的民政局离婚登记员，这就是他做这个工作要承担的风险。

可能有人会说了，她来办离婚不就是说明男主现在有机会了？可一段失败的婚姻下来，恨意侵身，苍老上面，你既然曾经爱过她，怎么会舍得看见当年那个明媚的女孩儿现在过得如此不好？当年的我们是那么美。

那个时候我们十五六岁，那个时候我们带着一颗认真而懵懂的心，那个时候学习是我们的最高任务，可桌子上的卷子的增长速度怎么能比得过青春期荷尔蒙的增长速度？纸可不只能被用来印卷子，还能用来写情书。

就像每个班里的最后排都有三个男生——

一个憨厚胆小总是被耍，一个看起来学习就不好但是打篮球一定很棒，一个白白净净平凡无奇（看片小经验：这个人一般都是男主角），年级第一也一定要有一段隐秘而坚定的恋情。

在年级第一的男生和隔壁班的女生在老师的猛烈围攻下坚定地说出爱的宣言后，实验中学掀起了一场轰轰烈烈的“表白运动”。

白白净净平凡无奇的王凯（赵顺然饰）为了报复憨厚胆小的老乔（赵健雷）在课堂上向老师“告密”而使自己痛失科比的明星卡，伪装成一个暗恋老乔的女生，娇滴滴地给他写了一封含情脉脉的情书，把他耍了个够呛。

眼看老乔对这个“不存在的女人”愈陷愈深，王凯这边怕纸包不住火，连忙找来一看学习就不好但是打篮球很棒的辛勇（马祥睿饰）一起想了个馊主意：拜托一个女生，伪装成暗恋老乔的那个“她”！

即便王凯和辛勇的恳求再情真真意切切，一般神经正常的女人也不会同意（当然如果老乔再帅点儿的话她们没准儿就答应了）。但当王凯找到那个前不久刚刚转学过来，和自己家住得很近的叶虹影（朱颜曼滋饰）时，她怎么就答应了呢？观众肯定在内心OS，她的神经看起来也挺正常的啊！那么她答应他的原因就只有……嗯，大家都心知肚明。

但是神经大条的高中男生是绝对不会发觉这其中的蹊跷的，他们只会觉得：“哎呀呀，世界上还是好人多啊！”拜托，世界上哪有那么多好人？人家姑娘人“好”，只不过是因为人家喜欢你罢了（男生们看到这里的时候都快想想，当初有哪个姑娘不管你的求助有多无理取闹人家都答应你了）。

老乔和叶虹影就这样“在一起了”，当然，只是学习伴侣而已。可是下了课要么在一起讨论题目要么一起在操场上散步，哪一个“神经正常”的高三老师会认为他们只是“普通同学”？

棒打鸳鸯向来是中年女老师的拿手好戏，一张冷酷无情的脸，手腕儿分寸得当，捏得你求生不得求死不能。于是王凯当初“不想伤害”老乔的一片好心，变成了同时伤害了老乔和叶虹影两个人的“险恶用心”。是的，高中校园里也总有一段男女关系，要闹得全校轰动，要以惨败收场。

在高中时代，学习和恋爱是尽人皆知的一对儿冤家。家长和老师要强行替孩子们转车道，但男生女生们却偏偏要撞上。一直以来家长和老师告诫我们的是，“恋爱耽误学习”，于是这就成了他们打起旗号鲜明反对“早恋”的法典第一条（也是唯一一条）。

作为一个中学时代被家长和老师联合绞杀的知名问题少女，笔者当然不这么认为，但是笔者却也认为中学时恋爱也不是什么好事情，原因就是十五六岁的男孩儿女孩儿空有一片真心和荷尔蒙，哪里懂得责任和包容为何物？

心里只有自己，结果就是一而再再而三地伤害对方，再转身去做祥林嫂，跟自己的闺蜜或者哥们儿抱怨：“他/她怎么可以那样对我？”

许多男生到了三十岁都不明白，为什么十几岁时自己喜欢也喜欢自己的那个女孩儿，最后会眼神冷冷的头也不回地离去？

她无辜，因为你她愿意和你一起上战场；

她柔弱，因为你她愿意自己冲到前线。

而你呢？

永远懦弱地站在后面，逃避着本应由你们共同承担的责任。

情与义，女生往往总是要比男生更加勇敢。（所以女孩子们，你们要是遇见了那个勇敢不逃避的男友，千万别放手！）

王凯以为自己当初找来叶虹影做老乔女友的“主意”聪明绝顶，但那不过是他逃避自己实质上对老乔的欺骗，以及不能够承担老乔得知真相后的后果；“学习伴侣”被歼灭后，为了能够安心一点儿，精神上饱受折磨的叶虹影想和王凯做同桌，但是身为罪魁祸首的王凯却要她自己去解决。喜欢你的心再火热呀，也凉了。

那么十年后的再重逢呢，把红章往她的绿本儿上那么一扣，“咚”的一声响是否还叩动懵懂不再却依旧认真的心。

不同于国内近年来“不疯狂，不青春”、光靠“高考”来调动观众热血的青春片（至于劈腿堕胎车祸系应该早就过时了），《小情书》动人就动人在影片在关于高中时代的生活细节上做得极为饱满真实，从把帽衫的帽子放在校服上衣领外面的穿法，再到打赌时的赌注是小浣熊干脆面，观众能够真真正正地感受到“这就是我们的高中时代”（连当爹妈的和当老师的都能从中感受到“这就是孩子在高中时代时的我们”）。

一向被称为蛇蝎心肠的笔者，在听到女老师在讲台上的那一句句“把卷子都拿出来，我们对一下选择题！”“我在上面讲，你在下面玩儿！”的时候肝儿也不禁一颤；在男主角查高考成绩的时候，看见那个蓝色和白色的查分页面，心也不由地紧张起来然后眼眶一湿。

少年游，教室里我们总是在这节课英语卷子的下面补着下节物理课要检查的卷子，总是一边瞄着台上的老师一边把头埋到桌子下面，飞快地咬一口刚小心翼翼地晃好调味包的小浣熊，总是在下课时面红耳赤地争论哪个球星最厉害；

走廊里我们总是能看见教导主任去抓谈恋爱的同学的焦急身影，总是脚步东走西晃眼光有意无意地东张西望，期待着能够与心里的那个人不期而遇；

卫生间里我们总是被人生中的第一口烟呛得直咳嗽，总是抑制不住内心和语气的兴奋分享着刚刚别人告诉你的“不要让别人知道”的八卦；

大厅里我们总是在起晚了的时候和抓迟到的老师斗智斗勇，总是在上课铃声响起前把手里的篮球最后往哥们儿的手里一扔；

老师的办公室里我们总是在帮老师整理考试卷子时偷看这一次考试的排名，总是一群人低着头站着一排，被逼问他和她的关系到底是怎么回事儿；

食堂里我们总是用眼睛来计算阿姨今天给自己打的饭到底够不够分量，总是在打赌或者在向军师讨教泡妞儿秘籍，代价是食堂里最好吃的那个鸡腿；

操场上我们总是在做课间操的时候才能光明正大地望着那个人的背影，总是在这节自习课不上了被奖励成一节体育课的时候玩儿得笑得最欢。

这些青春，我们统统都能在《小情书》里再经历一遍。

以及，为什么高考那两天的时候总是在下雨？

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我是看了https://movie.douban.com/review/8599598/?tab=likes#likes的影评之后立刻观看了这部剧，本剧应该是真实的还原或者说重现案情本身，也很真实的展现了所有相关人在面对这样一个悲剧的事实时的反应。看完之后，我的感触也有很多，文笔不好，只是记录下此刻的内心。

韩剧《夏娃》里有对夫妻，韩素拉和姜允谦，两人都来自顶流财阀之家，相似的家庭背景，符合门当户对强强联合。商业利益加上共同孩子，该是绑的死死地最牢靠的婚姻关系吧？然，一个十兆亿韩元离婚损失费相要挟，一个却直接选择净身出户干脆。纠缠到最后，两幅面孔都已经没有了体面，最后落了个鱼死网破的灾难片。用这样惨烈的方式结束婚姻，夫妻一方该是对婚姻有多么悔，多么失望。都在童年家暴阴影下成长的夫妻，本该惺惺相惜，为何不能彼此治愈，离心如此？原来，夫妻之间可以是枕头与被子的距离，也可以是山高水长的陌生。韩素拉离过婚，比姜允谦年长。听闻顶流圈里的姜允谦私生活检点，话少人帅，便主动出击女追男。姜允谦是私生子，之所以有二公子的名分，只为助力身体与能力皆弱的大哥，他只是个陪跑陪衬。女人有好胜心，男人有不甘心。两方家长有野心。于当时而言，这是顶好的结合。韩素拉的征服，姜允谦的赌注，都下在了婚姻这盘棋里。尽管外表繁华光鲜，但两颗心却是孤独的，没有安全感的，且他们从未也不敢把自己阴暗的一面袒露给对方，生怕揭开的伤疤不符合他们的人设。韩素拉的爸爸是个家暴男。有多暴力？他的生意是靠威逼利诱，是靠不服就干的生猛粗暴方式发展而来的。非法收购有潜力的公司如此，惩罚员工是如此，对待自己的妻子如此，对待自己的女儿亦是如此。韩素拉亲眼目睹爸爸是如何活生生打死她妈妈的，她也是一言不合就被她爸爸打，关闭室的。她一边有样学样，一边恨死了活在这淫威之下。即便她45岁了，她被家暴的噩梦也还在不定时上演着。这当然有她的自作孽不可活，但她一直掩盖着这份家丑，不敢让姜允谦知道。姜允谦的后背上留着童年被父亲暴打的印记。莫名其妙打，想打就打，边打还边被侮辱，仿佛他作为保姆所生的孩子多么轻贱，他只有承受。因为踏进这个家已是恩赐，他没有资格没有能力反抗。与韩素拉结婚既是父亲的旨意，也是他逃离家的契机。在那个家里，他从来是格格不入的异类，受冷漠疏离厌恶挤兑。两个人带着无法忘却的伤痛，都渴望逃离原生家庭，更带着当家做主的喜乐结合，美好过，只是美好是如此短暂。他们展示给对方的，永远是不完整的，是藏着掖着禁闭心扉的自己。他们的伤害都来自霸道的父亲，却又离不开父亲的光环和庇护。被本该最亲近的人否定伤害，又要装出自己很幸福的样子，烂在肚子里的便是妥协。这份羞耻，连枕边人都无法向其敞开，可见痛苦多么不堪。本该可以彼此温暖，可以互诉衷肠，可以牵手勇敢走出阴影，但他们却都选择了沉默。是他们太要面子？是他们无法相信任何人？是婚姻只能是锦上添花？兼而有之吧。在灵魂没有相交之前，他们都是胆怯的，自我保护的。悲伤必须被看见，才能治愈。被自己看见，也被彼此看见。他们藏起了这份巨大的悲伤，以为自己能够消化。却原来悲伤一直在记忆里，刻在肉体里，任多少金钱加持繁华锦簇，都无法使这份难堪减去半分。他们只有不断掩盖，不断演戏，才能忘却那个脆弱可怜的自己。而当姜允谦要放弃所有，去奔赴一场代表爱情的婚外恋时，韩素拉那种被背叛和抛弃的羞耻便涌上心头，即便展现了自己所有的美好，却被一个全是伤疤的女人给淘汰出局了。她不服不甘。她不知道的是恰恰有那么一个人，你敢，你自然而然，你毫无压力地说出你封存了多年的秘密，不止是一份毫无保留的信任，更是心与心的一次碰撞，碰撞出同病相怜的火花，于万万人之中独一份。可惜的是，夫妻10余年难以启齿，他们错过了这个靠近并升华感情的机会。

《冰肤》真爱是孤独

浪费时间的电影。一个人自我放逐，去到一个荒岛上准备过上避世的生活。没想到和另一已经度过了很久这种生活的人，一起面对一群兽人的攻击。究其原因，其实就是他们因为孤独，抓住了一个女兽人，那些兽人只是为了拯救同类，不得已才发动攻击。而他们为了占有女兽人，居然泯灭人性，肆意杀戮，把对异类的虐杀（用刀用枪，甚至用炸药）；而问题，这样的“不人道行为”居然一开始就被冠以“守护自己的领土”“保护自己的生命”的美名。

很明显，这样的故事，影射着什么？显然，比如美国人去伊拉克，去阿富汗……

另外，对于女兽人的微妙感情，和《水形物语》一样，给出一种对爱情的基础型理解：应对孤独！

的确，这更本质，谁不想自己的爱人是娇媚动人（或者英俊帅气），甚至还有更多的优势（比如在金钱地位方面）。但是真正逼迫人类面对一个可能丑陋不堪的对象，而且还“爱”上对方的原因，只能是孤独！但这是更多爱情故事的真实背景和真正源起。说透这句话，很毒，但是很真javascript:;。18.3.22

Feel Good is a low budget 6-episode TV show which mysteriously skipped my attention when it was first brought up by a friend: probably because it features no big star (Lisa is one, but in a small role), and British TV shows like Fleabag and Killing Eve have raised the bar very high now.

However, one night, I started to watch the first episode and was very impressed. The not so sub plot of addiction is so well-written. I really like it when Mae (its main character shares the same name with the writer and lead actor, which is a bit confusing) expands the definition of ‘addiction’: ‘it’s all the same feelings, craving, and withdrawl, and relief, and obsession. We are just swapping one addiction for another’. By doing that, Mae Martin (I will use the full name when referring to the creator) connects the love story and Mae’s struggle to stay clean together. Mae Martin challenges the audience to view addiction as not only a struggle among a group of people, but something many of us face when being in a toxic relationship with partners, or, say, social media. By then, I am convinced Feel Good is quite good because the creators know ‘nuances’. Its focus on addiction also reminds me of Killing Eve S2, the key word for its 2nd season is ‘obsession’. While both handle compulsive/toxic feelings between people/people and object, Killing Eve’s take on obsession is disappointing, Feel Good, on the other hand, only gets better episode by episode.

Story aside, I am mesmerized by how the show introduces the love story to the audience. It is fast-paced. As Guardian remarks, ‘Feel Good moves so quickly and lightly that it seems impossible it could also be managing to construct characters and burrow into psyches as deeply and empathically as it does.’ You never need to fast-forward; it’s densely-packed but you won’t feel stressful; the plots mingle effortlessly. It takes 30 seconds for Mae and George to fall in love with each other. I love how unconventional and unapologetic it is. I love how an LGBTQIA (bless Joyce) story focus on how the two lovers enjoy their relationship (at least for the most part) without giving too much attention to how they are unsure if the other is into them, or suffering from loneliness because they can’t find a partner. Of course the loneliness issue exists and there is suffering, but there are many representations of those already. Feel Good shows how the relationship can be the start, rather than the ending, of a story.

I also like how the struggles of Mae and George are more about themselves making choices than them being in disagreement with a suffocating society. It is refreshing to see not only Mae’s parents, but George’s mother, support their sexuality. Mae’s gig pals don’t make a fuss about her having a girlfriend. The roommate Phil is an angel. The lead of the support group is a gay man; Lava is loved by her mother regardless of her sexuality. While Binky’s husband and his friends are ‘piece of shit’, I don’t see them as homophobic (I could be wrong though). The show demonstrates that everyone can and should be nice to LGBT+ community. I like how Feel Good doesn’t use societal approval as a trope; instead, it allows us to see Mae and George as individuals who make their own decisions. Yes, sexuality is and will be important in their lives, but they don’t let it to devour them, they can still breathe.

The relationship is beautifully written and wonderfully performed. I mean THE CHEMISTRY!! Yes there is sex. As Mae Martin said, she didn’t want the lesbian sex to be voyeuristic. I congratulate her in doing a fantastic job!! Feel Good has amazing sex scenes: they are romantic, witty, hilarious, and honest. The director and writers make sure the sex scenes are not about sex/lust only, they are also about female pleasure. Mae and George communicate and share their sexual preferences; they don’t force their fetish on the other, instead, they ask politely. The show doesn’t mystify lesbian sex: even lesbians can’t cum and that’s ok! Feel Good has achieved what Sex Education has done: it has educated people (older than high schoolers) how to have sex, and more importantly, how to discern when the relationship is going south.

There are nudity scenes and they are (quite literally) serving the plot: it is when Mae feels most vulnerable physically. The paradox of the physicality and the personality is, however, not restricted to gay people. Mae is struggling because she believes however hard she tries, she can never have George in the long haul because George is ‘culturally straight’. George, however, insists this idea is just in Mae’s head. (Or is it?) It becomes apparent that the couple is not on the same page on many things. Mae is shy but she wants public validation of their relationship: she wants to be blessed by George’s family and friends. George is popular (win the lottery) but she is ultra private when it comes to Mae. She points out her friends just want to crack a joke and emotions (mind, not sexuality), for them, is gross. Eventually, George will have to face her own real emotions. There is a moment where Mae questions why George never like/retweet her social media stuffs. As Fleabag says ‘Hair is everything’, the (non)usage of social media, I argue, is (almost) everything. This again shows the discrepancy between the couple – which, of course, is normal; in every relationship/friendship, such disagreements happen and that’s what makes this show so relatable.

It is interesting to note that the dynamic between the two flows all the time. I find myself on the side of Mae and then I am on George’s side! For example, the first episode shows Mae concealing her addiction history from George, which is a bit dishonest; but George also makes Mae think she’s already mentioned her to her friends while actually she’s dating some Crenshaw dude. I find it especially interesting that while George is portrayed as a cold person (she leaves Mae alone in a party; she’s rather cold towards Phil etc etc), Mae can also be quite aloof – check what she does to Lava. When she says let’s not share this with Maggie, it is as if George were saying let’s not tell my friends now.

Talking about George and her friends, I really like how the show does about their friendship. It shows that those friendships, even though ‘long haul’, are not necessarily genuine. Indeed, things can be tricky, if not scary, when friends finally choose to be honest with each other, right?

Binky’s husband and friends are hilarious characters, but the show makes sure not all the male characters are caricatured. I like Phil a lot; he’s giving me the neighbor who ended up marrying Hannah’s boyfriend’s sister in Girls, especially when he’s mentioning all the baby stuffs. Mae’s dad is a charming character; but I am not sure if he’s a good dad. His ‘Oh I need to check the garden’ is a specimen of dad type, who leaves all the dirty job of communicating with kids to mums. The show also inserts in a MeToo story plot where things turn sour quickly. In all, the portrayals of male characters are multifaceted. Well done.

Last but not the least: small roles. Does the show even have small roles? Because everyone shines. Even the shop assistant of that sex shop: the scene is so funny and captivating. Lisa Kudrow is funny but in a cold way – which is really nice. I am not crazy about her first appearance in the laptop; seeing her appear in Blackpool is a real surprise for me (and Mae). I love the scene in Ghost Train the most. Arguing in a horror house/moving train, with all the noise and terrifying man-makes while discussing ‘real emotions’, which is the most terrifying of all – what a genius idea!! The fact that the show keeps vague about why Mae is cast out of the family is an interesting one; I quite like how her mother points out her privilege and that she has everything she wants when she grows up. Again, the show is looking at the mysterious and intricate human mind that is not so easily explainable. Apart from that, I don’t think there are a lot of TV shows that discuss ‘privilege’. Kudos to the writers for highlighting this aspect.

The photography is really pretty. It, like TEOTFW, has a consistent tone, which is even reflected when Mae and George are in bed. Note the beautiful blue shadow. The music is nice. The costume looks comfy and lovely (never let the costume steal the show– I’m talking to you, Killing Eve). My favorite, as I said earlier is the pace of narration. Mae has run a lot and it is a signature of Feel Good, like Fleabag’s looking at the camera.

Feel Good is about a female stand-up comedian. In the States, there is The Marvelous Mrs Maisel. Both Mae and Midge suffer from a backfire from they using real-life stories with their partner (judging from S1 finale, haven’t watched S2 yet). It is interesting to think how personal the stand-up mateials can be, but having just watched Hannah Gadsby’s Nanette, I am reminding myself that in order to make things funny, the ‘truth’ can be compromised. While Nanette is almost metafictional when Hannah approaches/disconstructs what makes comedy, I don’t think that is the angle Feel Good is heading towards. However, it is still fit to think about the show amongst the powerful works by Mae Martin’s fellow female comedians. The freshness of the show also reminds me of Girls (with its minute depictions of modern female life) and Fleabag (with its candidacy about real emotions). Feel Good deserves more recognition and PLEASE CAN WE HAVE SEASON 2 THANK YOU NETFLIX!!