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劇場版 呪術廻戦 0 (2021)

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说实话不看前作的设定基本看不懂本剧的设定 当然了 也有可能即使看了之前的作品的设定依然看不懂本剧的设定

瞎xx看吧

然后一部剧场版就为了介绍一个人物这个设计挺迷惑的

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《花生酱猎鹰》我是弱智，那又怎样？

看此片名，猜出不故事的半点头绪来，看过后就会会心地笑了。故事从另一角度看正常成年人的世界，金钱、权力、面子、责任等太多的枷锁，看看他们活得多辛苦，“享受生活”这句话永远都只能先搁在半梁，而对于一个弱智者来说，生活却有意思多了，简单而快乐。这类电影还有《飞鹰艾迪》等。

路边的烧烤档，零晨三点一群后生在喝啤酒吃烤肉，四十后的成年人在十二点前已上床，这种不良的生活习惯是错误的；公路上，老伯卖完的自己种的蔬菜，和他和横着一对萝框的自己在路口等红绿灯，阻碍了右转的汽车，司机在不停地按喇叭催促……当你怪罪老伯不懂交通规则时，想想文明这个词你又是如何理解的？人们不可能获得全部的知识，知得更多不代表比别人优越，有没有想过那所谓的知识并不一定能生活更美好或使人正优秀，相反他象无形丝绳一样把人从各个角度，各种层面上围堵了，而人们全然不知。

有时候看年简单的人多好，想得更多，知得更多，甚至得到更多，那又怎样？生活好过了么？人格伟大了么？

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朊病毒不是病毒

虽然朊病毒被冠以“病毒”二字，但实际上它并不是一种病毒，而是胰脏变异的蛋白质。

经过研究发现，朊病毒实际上是一种小型蛋白质颗粒，大约有250个氨基酸。它的个头小到可怜，就算是和最小的病毒相比，它也只能占1%。但是这并不妨碍也具有很强的致病性和100%的致死率。由于朊病毒是一种变异蛋白质，所以它没有任何核酸成分，但是其致病性又和病毒十分相似，所以很长一段时间里人们都没有发现它的存在。

朊病毒极难杀死

朊病毒还有一个很恐怖的特点，就是极难杀死，这也是为什么那些食用了患疯牛病的牛肉后，也会感染病毒的原因。因为朊病毒的抗逆性比普通的病毒强大数倍，人类目前研制出的杀菌剂几乎对它没有什么作用，即便是用高温烹煮也没办法将其杀死。朊病毒在120℃-130℃的高温下，“历练”四小时后仍然具有感染性。对物理（紫外线灯）化学（碱性消毒液）的抗性也远高于其他微生物和寄生虫。可谓物魔抗性双休。

其中一种阮病毒引起的致死性家族失眠病(fatal familial insomnia，FFI)作为其中一种 会在家族中显性遗传 平均50岁发病 不久后去世。

另一种阮病毒克氏综合症患者的身高明显都要高于正常人。

因为克氏综合症会造成患者的下体生长比较迅速，同时双腿会比较的纤细，大部分患者的下体长度会明显的超过上体，因此会出现身高明显高于正常人的现象。

剧中后藤家吃人 并出现2米高的“现世神”可能就是阮病毒引起的遗传疾病。而源头就来自于吃人传统 所以这部漫画还是有科学依据的。

从第四季入坑，返回第一季老老实实一集一集追到第七集，用时三个多月。

有烧脑，有错愕，有懵逼，跟着各种时间线绕着跑，跳着跑，只有第七集是让人放松的，穿插着喜剧色彩，真的让人有点点欣慰有点点泪目，可能真的是收尾集，给老粉们一点点甜。

弹幕各种声音都有，有说凑剧情，有的说最后一集比较水，我倒觉得换了风格，很是新颖。有悬疑，有惊悚，有恐怖，有烧脑，有推理，有泪目，有纠结，也有燃爆时刻，也该有点被high到的情节和泪点了。

不知道以后还有没有脑力二刷，但如果有再刷的长剧情，绝对还是神盾局。

还是最敬爱的库森，骑士梅姨，不断成长的震波女，最佳最虐科学组，二队长麦克和YOYO，真的没想到YOYO也会是一直到最后的人，中间遇见了那么多那么多曾经最重要的人又失去，没想到走到最后的人是YOYO。或许，麦克队长成长的过程中也需要肩膀吧。

也怪我知识点覆盖率太低，本剧除综合剧情外，还结合历史、政治、国际、时事、传记类人物、科技、星际、物理、化学、人文、音乐、服装等等等等各个领域知识，除了单纯看剧外，应该还能引起各个领域的人士产生共鸣吧。

感觉大脑不够用的时候，不止一点点。

曾经的我 幸福满足I was once happy, content,徜徉在只属于我的羊水之中sloshing around in my own private, primordial pool.结果有一天 由于不可抗拒的因素Then one day, for reasons beyond my control,我母亲莱丝丽的子宫I was repeatedly crushed...一次又一次对我残忍地施加压力over and over by the cruel cervix of my mother, Leslie.我顽强地抵抗了 却终敌不过大自然I put up a good fight, but I lost,这是我人生第一次败仗 之后更是节节败退

我厌弃所有人 除了你I hate everyone else in the world but you.

茱尔丝 你自残吗And, Jules, do you self-injure?事实上 茱尔丝讨厌自己The truth was, Jules hated herself.她讨厌自己大脑的运作方式She hated how her brain worked...她的大脑会因一个想法而卡住the way it would get stuck on a thought,从而噎到自己like choking.专注于当下All right. Keep present.大脑会陷入无尽的循环And it would just play on an infinite loop,直到她停止思考until she couldn't think无法呼吸 濒临死亡or breathe or stand to be alive.克服并非易事 茱尔丝This is hard, Jules.你一定可以挺过去You're going to get through it, okay?但她不仅讨厌自己的大脑She didn't just hate her brain, though.她还讨厌自己的身体 但不是每个部位都讨厌She hated her body, not every part,只讨厌肩膀 手臂just her shoulders, and her arms,双手and her hands.还有胸部 腹部 大腿Also her chest, her stomach, her thighs.她最讨厌膝盖了Her knees were the worst.还很讨厌脚踝和肥大的双脚Plus her ankles, and her big, fucking, stupid feet.她讨厌自己的人生 并非因为过得不好She hated her life, not because it was bad,而是因为 痛恨自己的大脑和身体之人but because when you hate your brain and your body,很难享受人生

每当她被虐得很惨时...And whenever anything got too uncomfortable...茱尔丝就假装自己灵魂出窍Jules would just imagine that she wasn't really herself,她其实在旁观别人的生活and this wasn't really her life.她只是虚构作品中的一个虚构人物She was just a character in a book or a movie or a show.一切都是假象 即便是真 又能如何呢That none of it was real, and if it was, how did it matter?这具身体本就不属于她It's not like her body ever really belonged to her in the first place.

我没有特别喜欢的事情There's nothing I'm really passionate about.没有非要做或说的事You know, like, I'm not dying to say or do anything, really.每次我向大家坦露心迹And every time I admit that to people,他们都会觉得这样很可悲 但是...they're like, "Oh, my gosh, that's so sad." But...我觉得多数人都是如此I think that's the case for most people.我妈是如此You know? Like, when I look at my mom or...我同学也是如此like, the kids at my school--从他们社交媒体上的动态就能看出来like, their profiles or their posts and their Tumblr rants...大家也都过得稀里糊涂 迷茫无助you realize they're all just fucked up, too... and lost.只是他们都得掩饰真相...They just have a reason to mask it...为了不让家人担忧whether it be, like, their, their families拴住男友 博取关注or their boyfriends or their hashtag activism.他们都只是借助表面的光鲜亮丽And they're just reaching for something-粉饰人生的虚无 -小茹...- to make it all seem meaningfu

麦迪从小就很了解自己Maddy knew who she was from a very early age.从麦迪记事以来 她就是万人迷For as long as Maddy could remember, everybody loved her.

她不知自己为何受欢迎She never knew exactly what it was.她只知道自己很特殊She just knew that she had something special,气质迷幻朦胧something intangible,魅力无人能及something immeasurable.

她因此充满自信And it gave her confidence

她也是因此热爱选美That's why she loved pageantry,因为冠军不必容貌倾城 高挑精干because you didn't have to be the prettiest or the tallest也不必金发碧眼 肤如凝脂or the blondest or the whitest.自信闪耀就够了

You just had to have fucking confidence.嘉年华当晚 和卢克·卡斯滕打炮时So the night of the carnival, while fucking Luke Kasten,凯特顿悟了Kat had an epiphany.她居然上了卢克·卡斯滕She was fucking Luke Kasten,那他妈可是卢克·卡斯滕啊Luke motherfucking Kasten.没上过东高的人可能不知道...And for those of you who didn't go to East Highland...卢克·卡斯滕可是男神Luke Kasten was a fucking god.他毕业多年 可学校里依然有他的传说I mean, he graduated years ago and people still talk about him.他有我见过最大的鸡鸡He has the biggest dick I've ever seen,他上我时 我一直盯着他看and I was looking at him while he was fucking me.他射精时I could see his face scrunching up我看到他的脸皱成一团when he was coming all over my stomach,我突然就顿悟了and I had this, like, realization, you know, like, this epiphany.无论这个人有多酷帅性感That no matter how cool, or, or sexy不论他在你眼中有多聪明or, or smart you think a guy is,其实都卑微渺小得可悲可怜they're actually just fucking pathetic.

我一直试图减弱自己的存在感my whole life, all I've tried to do is to take up less space.

企图避开那帮男人Try to hide from guys, like, who might, like,因为我经过时 他们会对朋友悄悄吐槽whisper to their friend under their breath as I walked by.我这一生I've spent my whole life都在担心大家会发现我是个胖妞afraid people were gonna find out that I was fat.但说实话 根本没人在意But honestly, who gives a shit?

无所畏惧的胖女孩所向披靡There's nothing more powerful than a fat girl who doesn't give a fuck.

高中的情谊转瞬即逝 并非天长地久Nothing in high school lasts forever.你该见见她You should meet her.

Are you kidding me?你被罚下了You're out of the game.冲动就会输球You get emotional, you lose.动怒就会输球You get angry, you lose.-爸 他说我是... -无关紧要- Dad, he called me-- - I don't give a good goddamn.你觉得他为什么偏偏说你呢Why do you think he's talking to you in the first place?-因为他... -因为他想激怒你- Because he-- - Because he's trying to get a rise out of you.扰乱你的思绪 让你分心Trying to make you upset, lose focus.他在挑战你的底线 这就是生存法则That's his game. That's the world's game.他们不断逼你They want to push on you,逗弄你 考验你的极限Poke on you, see exactly how much you can take.极限会决定你能走多远And how much you can take is what will ultimately define you.因为应对之道可以衡量人的品性Because the measure of a man is in how he reacts.我该如何应对How am I supposed to react?将自己的所有情绪By taking everything you feel,挫败感 愤怒 狂暴all your frustrations, your anger, your rage,统统收起you bottle it up,守住本心you take your position,当情绪累积至顶峰and when that snap comes,将其化作喷薄而出的动力you let it explode.

她几乎每次都会心软答应And she almost always said yes.尽管她很不情愿 也会照做Even though it didn't always make her feel good.她知道 多数男生跟她分手后And she knew that most guys, after she broke up with them,都会散播她的性爱视频和裸照

would always share those photos or videos.她刚发现时 恐慌心悸The first time she found out, she had a panic attack,她甚至想吞扑热息痛自杀and wanted to swallow a whole bottle of Tylenol.但最终打消了自杀的念头But she didn't.因为大家顶多言语上对她讽刺挖苦Because, I mean, what's the worst thing anybody could say to her?无非就是嘲笑她给渣男口交而已That she gave a blowjob to a guy who didn't deserve it?而且 她觉得等到毕业求职那会儿And she figured by the time she was out of college and looking for a job,绝大多数人都有过裸照的黑历史了99 percent of the population would have leaked nudes, anyway.

一想到要站起来The thought of having to stand up,移动35英尺 每走一步要调动172块肌肉exert 172 muscles each step for 35 feet,就为了坐在冰凉的陶瓷坐便器上just so I can sit on cold porcelain日复一日地排出体内毒素and piss out toxins over and over again for the rest of my life我就觉得人生是一个漫长且磨人的玩笑makes the whole concept of living feel like one long, sadistic joke.但抑郁最磨人的一点是But the absolute worst part of depression你明知自己抑郁了is that even though you know you're depressed,却依然无可救药地越陷越深you're unable to stop yourself from getting worse

抑郁的另一症状就是The other thing about depression is让人丧失时间概念it kind of collapses time.突然之间 全部记忆混杂交织Suddenly, you find your whole days blending together无穷无尽 令人窒息to create one endless and suffocating loop.抑郁后 人会试图回想愉悦的瞬间So you find yourself trying to remember the things that made you happy.但大脑会一点点蚕食欣快的回忆But slowly, your brain begins to erase every memory that ever brought you joy.最终And eventually,脑中仅剩人生中沉闷压抑的记忆all you can think about is how life has always been this way.人就会日渐消沉And will only continue to be this way.

曾经有个心理医生说 我压抑的状态会起起落落I had a therapist once who said that these states will wax and wane.我妈因此松了一口气Which gave my mother relief,因为就算我犯病了because it meant that in the bad times,总也会好起来there would be good times.但她也因此焦灼难安But it also gave her anxiety因为就算我一时没事because it meant that in the good times,总也有抑郁发作的一天there would be bad times.我一直很不解It always confused me,因为我不懂"起落"的意思because I didn't really know what it meant.但听起来比我自己的形容更让人安心But it did sound a lot calmer than the way I would describe it.我得继续服药There you go. How you feel? Okay?我知道你现在很低落 宝贝I know you're feeling low right now, baby.但你没有故态复萌 说明你的症状有所缓解But the fact that you didn't turn back means you're gettin' better.没错It does.一定是这样It does.当然了 我之后才领悟到Granted, I didn't realize until later"起起落落"的真正含义what waxing and waning implied.抑郁无法根除 会反复发作That these feelings were fixed and constant我的余生都将与抑郁作伴and would never end for the rest of my life.

我住院观察了三天And kept me there for three days.其实住院可好了It was actually really nice.我超喜欢医院I love hospitals.要是余生都能在医院度过 我绝对没意见If I could spend the rest of my life in a hospital, I would.因为住院时Because when you're in a hospital,可以做个米虫you have zero responsibilities.医护人员会保证你吃饱睡好 身体棒棒They make sure you eat, sleep, stay hydrated,如遇不测 医生总能及时出现and if anything bad happens, there's always a doctor nearby.谢谢Thank you.发生大规模枪击案时 待在医院最明智了It's also the best place to be in the event of a mass shooting,只要外科医生没死光光就行unless the gunman kills all the surgeons.关键是 我在医院无忧无虑The point is, I had zero anxiety.

我昨晚写信时and as I sat down last night to write it,忍不住回想你出生那天的场景I couldn't stop thinking about the day you were born.我第一次将你抱入臂弯Holding you in my arms for the first time,怜爱地看着你looking down at you,看着你可爱动人的小脸your sweet, beautiful face...我这辈子从未如此充满爱意 欢欣愉悦I had never felt so much love and joy in my entire life.于是我想到...And I thought that...若是那一刻 有人能提醒我该多好what if in that moment I heard a voice,通晓万物的人生旁白对我低语some omniscient narrator who said,"接下来将会如此""Here's what's going to happen."你的女儿将会风趣幽默 聪明伶俐 开朗大方""Your daughter is gonna be funny, and smart, and outgoing,"她的灵气从小便会显现"You'll see it instantly, from a young age.""她将会魅力四射 广交朋友""She'll be charismatic and make friends easily.""她将会温柔善良 心思细腻""She'll be kind and sensitive."细腻到敏感""Maybe too sensitive."她不会是个乖乖女""She won't be an easy child."她会很叛逆"She'll struggle.""因此 你将很难看懂她""And in turn, you'll struggle to understand her.""你将跟不上她的思维""To understand what's going on inside of her head."无法理解那些难以摆脱的梦魇""The night terrors that can't be interrupted."很多时候 晚饭后""The times after dinner where"她会坐在餐桌旁""She'll just sit at the kitchen table"一遍遍数着天花板砖的数量and count the tiles over and over,"数到自己上气不接下气""Until she hyperventilates."你会用尽全力拥她入怀 安慰她""To fight to hold her in your arms, to tell her it's okay.""你们将难以平静 她会摔打东西 大吼大叫""To calm down. The kicking. The screaming."她会害怕受伤""The anxiety of being harmed."她会日夜煎熬""The transitions from day to night,"从家中到学校 每顿饭皆是如此""From home to school, from meal to meal."她会担心失去父母和妹妹"Of losing her mother or father or little sister.""她害怕会孤苦伶仃"- "Of being alone."我很喜欢她I really like her."她会恐慌发作 情绪波动 迷惑不解 精神分裂""The panic attacks, mood swings, confusion, disorganization"她会愤怒狂躁""And all that rage."不仅生你的气 也会恼恨自己""Not just at you, but at herself."最煎熬的是...""And the tough part i"她无法自救 而你也将束手无策""you'll feel as helpless to help her as she does herself.""你将犯下大大小小的错误""You'll make mistakes. Small ones and big ones."你会慌忙求助 病急乱投医""You'll look for help from people who aren't helpful."你求助之人或许根本不了解情况""Or who don't actually understand what's happening.""内疚感将因此伴你终生""And the guilt will never leave you.""但若你保持镇定 温柔耐心""But if you remain calm and patient,"若你能仔细聆听""If you listen closely,"你便能渐渐理解她""理解她为何重复地数了一遍又一遍""The counting, the repetition,"理解她对于对称的执着""the need for symmetry."若你睡前亲吻了她的左脸""That if you kiss her left cheek before bed,"一定也要亲吻她的右脸""You have to kiss her right cheek."还有额头 下巴""And her forehead. Then her chin."因为这样才平衡稳定""That it's about balance, stability."这样她才能疏导情绪 捋顺思绪""The need to organize her feelings and thoughts, so..."这样她才能平静下来"she can breathe easier.""你将得到片刻的喘息""And there will be moments of relief,"你们俩都能松一口气""In her and in you."这些时刻平静安宁 顺心满足""Moments that feel so normal, and calm, and rewarding that..."你会希望平淡的幸福能够天长地久""You'll find yourself praying they last forever."可她还小""Even though she's only a child,"糟心事还在后面呢"And all the hard parts have yet to even come."16岁时""And at the age of 16,"她会吸毒过量""She'll overdose,"昏迷四天""Spend four days in a coma,"生死未卜""And you won't know if she'll live or die."但等她醒来""But when she wakes up,"她会有机会戒毒""She'll be given the opportunity to get clean,"改过自新""To become a different person,"完善自己""A better person."但有一点你无能为力""Here's the toughest part."不论你怎么说 怎么做 怎么想""No matter what you say, or do, or wish,"决定权都在她手中""The decision will be all hers."你只能心怀希望""And all you can do is hope"希望她能给自己一个重新来过的机会"

凯特Kat.万一现在就是我们人生的高光时刻呢What if these are, like, the big moments in life?我妈总说Like, my mom always talks about高中是她人生的里程碑式高光时刻how high school was like this big, monumental part of her life.可她都半老徐娘了 居然还对高中念念不忘But I cannot imagine being 40 and looking back at this, like, "Wow."因为多数人在高中达到了人生巅峰Yeah, but that's because most people peak in high school.我肯定还没达到巅峰...I definitely haven't peaked, so...我感觉自己还没长大呢I feel like I'm not even a person yet.我也就攀登到巅峰的四分之一吧Yeah, I'm definitely at, like, 25 percent peakness.我好像达到巅峰了I feel like I'm at a hundred.但我还能升得更高But I can definitely get to 150.讲真 我都没想到自己能撑到现在Honestly, I never thought I'd make it this far.什么意思What do you mean?我总是提心吊胆 惶惶不安I don't know. I just always had, like, this overwhelming anxiety我总觉得一定会出事that something bad would happen.说实话 去年夏天In all fairness, last summer,我有三周一直以为你死了there were, like, three weeks where I thought you were dead.

昨天刷微博的时候，惊喜的发现初代的第四季开播了，于是自己陷入了深深的纠结之中。我猜所有看了太多剧的人心中都会有同样的情愫吧，就像最好的东西永远舍不得消费，宁愿把它压在箱底，这样就知道它永远在那里，一直在。奈何耐不住心中的小悸动，还是在深夜11点点开了链接，看到大K久违的笑容，突然觉得好像一切都值了，无论是走掉的流量还是空缺的睡眠。接着第三季的故事，Hope成了所有人活下去的希望，因为与生俱来的强大无比的力量开始了一段新的故事，好像日记的第八季那两个可爱的小女孩。提到日记，总想说第八季还是可以的，虽然说第七季已经被吐槽到不行，但不得不承认第八季所有人的回归真的让人感觉好暖好暖，整个故事包含的内容量很大，试图把所有人安置都妥妥贴贴，在情节上就已经是一种成功了，而所有演员的演绎也就变成了锦上添花。好像跑偏了，我想说的其实是大K，自从他出现的第一次起，就注定吸引了所有观众的目光，不论是与生俱来的King的气质还是任性自信的能力，其他人都将无法与其媲美。因为有能力，所以有底气，所以狂妄，所以不屑一顾，王之蔑视，却又让所有人觉得理所应当。内心深处却又有自己的原则，自己视若珍宝的东西，这样他的一切恶行又变得可以原谅，还是一个天生的艺术家。

#财阀家的小儿子#

很多人疑惑，第五集折腾这么半天就是为了不让妈妈死，犯得着吗？直接给点钱，给爸爸找个工作不就解决了吗？

如果你是这样想的，那么我必须说你没仔细看，并且没看懂编剧的格局。

小儿子重生一世，如果只是为了赚钱为了救妈妈，那他根本不需要斗，不需要做任何企业并购，他只要一直买股票，加杠杆买股票，几年翻一千倍都可以，然后开始买土地，韩国土地是私有制的，直接买汉南洞、江南的土地，他可以变成韩国的王。那如果只是一直用预知的能力买买买赚赚赚，那么这是一部非常服肤浅的作品。

几个细节：编剧有大格局，在小爱与大爱中发展。

1、道俊问爷爷不是要正道经营吗？为什么不能雇佣继承？爷爷说不能让他们觉得他们是主人了，财阀的正道只有钱。爷爷转身后道俊看着墙上的“正道经营”眼神狠戾。

2、跟吴代表的对峙，连开明的吴代表都认为工人雇佣是为了利益为了成功拿下并购案，甚至拿下后工人的去向不一定会按承诺来，因为不符合利益最大化的投资理念。

3、在妈妈餐馆吃饭的时候，爸妈说的那段话，韩国这个国家已经坏了，不要再抱有希望了。爸爸说他18岁工作三十年勤勤恳恳做好每一个岗位那么努力，不明白为什么会这样。这时候穿插了前世咸鱼对爸爸的恶语相向，在98年金融危机的时代大背景下，道俊开始明白爸爸的不易，明白不是爸爸害死了妈妈而是那个吃人的时代那个动荡的不断牺牲小人物的时代。

4、道俊的新公司叫奇迹，他在去找妈妈打算告诉她他买了房子的时候，路上的心理活动，他成功的解决了收购工人雇佣继承的事，他认为他可以创造奇迹，没想到最后还是失败了。

所以，编剧对这部作品的内核是社会阶级发展中，政治家、财阀对老百姓的剥夺和剥削，道俊虽然是财阀的孩子可是他的灵魂是苦了四十年的底层百姓，是被社会洪流裹挟的悲惨的人家，他有了富贵的出生有个金手指，并不是只想着多赚钱享受人生，他想斗，想跟剥削阶级斗，想创造奇迹，这才是道俊的大爱，也才是一部作品的升华。